This Amitabha retreat (December 26th, 2013) is my first time meeting Khenpo Karthar Rinpoche. What brought me here is a picture I found on internet 52 weeks ago.

… what brought me here is a picture I found on internet 52 weeks ago, showing Khenpo Karthar Rinpoche holding a small finger puppy. It caught my eyes right away and I had this thought that “I really want to meet him!” and that is why I am here now. Curiously, this picture had been taken one year ago by my friend Stephanie Colvey, fact of which I realized during the retreat while talked with her about how all is interrelated.

During the retreat sessions, I had many visions but two of them were more vivid. In the first one during the day, I saw a little white dog with long hair around its eyes. The second one was repetitive and a little bit unpleasant showing disturbing images. At the beginning I thought these images were only a product of my imagination and I did not pay too much attention.

We knew that Rinpoche like toys so we brought him one. Finally, my boyfriend and I managed to have an interview with him thanks to Stephanie. As soon as we entered his room, our ears felt a pressure and became clogged like when an airplane is taking off. Then I realized everything surrounding us disappeared, except Rinpoche, who somehow appeared so unrealistically huge. Also there was a very intense brightness in the room. Just after our entering, Rinpoche smiled at me and when I looked at his eyes, they seemed to say “Oh! You finally come to me!” I was overwhelmed with joy and had the urge to hug him and kiss him all over his cheeks. I was obsessed with the feeling that it was him who had saved me from, if not a dog, must be some kind of being living in a lower realm similar to the disturbing images I had in my visions.

Below: December 31st, 2013 – The picture that caught her eyes and heart. Photo by Stephanie Colvey

On the final day of the retreat, when I approached Rinpoche during the khata offering, I told him through my thoughts: “Thank you Rinpoche for saving me and for being here with me”. Immediately he smiled as if he could read my mind. 

Back home, I have felt very connected to him like if he could talk to me and also I have dreamed him many times. 

Now, I have definitely “fallen in love” with Rinpoche. I just wish I can move closer to him.

Below, the photo of Khenpo Karthar Rinpoche by Stephanie Colvey

這次在KTD參加阿彌陀佛閉關(2013年12月26日)是我第一次見到堪布卡塔仁波切。讓我來到這裏的是52周前我在網上發現的一張照片，照片上堪布卡塔仁波切抱著一只小手指狗玩具。它立刻吸引了我的目光，我心想:“真的很想見見他啊！”這就是我現在在這裏的原因。奇怪的是，這張照片是一年前由我的朋友斯蒂芬妮·科爾維拍攝的，我在閉關期間和她談論諸法是如何相互關聯時，知道了這點。

在閉關期間，我看到了很多景象，但其中有兩個非常生動。在白天出現的第一個景象中，我看到一只白色的小狗，它的眼睛周圍有長長的毛發。第二個是重復出現的，顯示令人不安的圖像，有點不愉快。一開始我以為這些圖像只是我想象的產物，沒有太在意。

我們知道仁波切喜歡玩具，就給他帶了一個。多虧了斯蒂芬妮，我和我的男朋友有機會拜見了他。我們一進入他的房間，耳朵就感覺到一種壓力，就像飛機起飛時那樣被堵住了。然後我意識到我們周圍的一切都消失了，除了仁波切以外。不知何故，他顯得如此不切實際的巨大，房間裏也異常明亮。就在我們進入後，仁波切對著我微笑，我看著他的眼睛，它們似乎在對我說“哦！你終於來找我了！”我欣喜若狂，很想擁抱他，親吻他的臉頰。我癡迷於這樣一種感覺: 是他救了我！如果不是從一只狗的話，那一定是從某種生活在一個更低世界的有情，類似於我在幻覺中看到的那個令人不安的畫面。在閉關的最後一天，我在獻哈達接近仁波切時，在心裡默默對他說:“謝謝仁波切您救了我，也謝謝您和我在一起”。他立刻笑了，就好像他讀懂了我的心思。回到家，我覺得和仁波切很有聯繫，就像他能和我說話一樣，而且我也多次夢到他。現在，我肯定已經“愛上”仁波切了。我只希望能離他更近些。2013年12月31日由一位來自蒙特利爾的年輕女士講述。正是這幅由斯蒂芬妮·科維拍的照片吸引了她的目光和心靈。